11 Years Ago

Posted by kara

This day always feels heavy to me. Everything feels a little sadder, a little more precious around this time. I feel guilty that I get to feel sad and then move on and feel normal. I feel like I should feel more carpe diem-ish, but instead, I feel like I can only think of sad things around this time. So then I feel guiltier, for not taking advantage of every second of my life.

I feel sad for the families affected. I hold onto that day’s details, to remember how tragic it was and is for them.

Today I took Marf to look at the lake. It was cold, but it was good to see the water and the city and the sky. Just kind of a strange day.